Write or Flight?
Things have been strange between us for the past few months and I’m starting to wonder if I have offended him. I am confused. A million things go through my mind. Is he seeing someone else? Does he still love me? One question lingers… Do I really love him?
I do. He saved me from myself. I know it sounds cheesy but he completes me. Please allow me to explain. When he’s with me, I smile, laugh and breathe easier. He’s my oxygen. I am torn and I can’t bear to lose him. He comes home when he feels like it and I am tired of waiting! We’re a team. I cannot do what I do without him. I calm myself and brainstorm for ideas to win him back. I have to make him want me, as I want him.
Everyone appreciates coming home to a calm environment and he is no different. I clean the house, put on some smooth Brazilian jazz and place scented candles in our room. I’m not a drinker but I’m nervous. A glass of wine might take the edge off. Fifteen minutes into the retreat, he arrives. My heart is racing. The closer he get’s I can feel a wave of light current passing through my body and it lingers on my fingertips. I exhale and allow him to caress me.
He’s back! I’m glad we’re working on our relationship. When I say ‘he,’ I’m referring to writing. Writing is my companion. We don’t always see eye to eye but we’re a team. I realize that sometimes he’ll need his space but when I need him I try to do the things that will bring him to the surface. I engage in activities that evoke his spirit. For instance, I take a scenic drive, visit a park, listen to music or attend cultural festivals. Sometimes, inspiration comes from the things that fascinate us. A writer is never short on creativity. Sometimes we are trying to find the right way to express our ideas.
I'm curious...how do you set the mood for writing?
I set the mood by turning on Brad Paisley music and drinking a glass of wine. They both "get me in the mood" in different ways ;-)
ReplyDeleteYes! Love it. I can appreciate country music. The experiences they turn into music is inspiring.
DeleteI love country music. It bring so many different feeling out in the open. Brad Paisley's voice gives me all sorts of tingling feelings lol
DeleteI find my best ideas come when I am walking so I guess to get in the mood for writing I exercise, walk or do some activity -especially outside in nature. Come to think of it, I often get out into my herb garden and wish I had brought a notepad! LOL
ReplyDeleteGreat post, really enjoyed reading it,
April Danann
Sometimes inspiration comes at the most inconvenient moments LOL. I have learned the hard way to always have a pad and pen with me where ever I go. In the past when I failed to do so, I wrote on the back of reciepts, candy boxes you name it, even the edges of newspapers. I love the spontaneity of writing. Thanks for sharing :)
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